you cant be that far away from me ; if we're looking on the same side of the moon
Saturday, March 29, 2008
Your lights are turned on.. are you home tonight?
He wondered as he rolled up along the curb side opposite her house. For the umpteen night since she walked out of his life, he had driven to her house and parked across the road for no apparent reason. Perhaps, he was just hoping to catch a glimpse of that face that he'd do anything to touch again through the window.
I need you boo..Gotta see you boo.. And there's hearts all over the world tonight.. Said there's hearts all over the world tonight..
The schmalzy tune that he fell in love with after hearing it on her friendster profile played on his ipod as he gazed forlornly at her lighted window.
It was 10.55pm.
Not too long ago, they had just exchanged kisses in his car right outside her gate. Oh how he missed those good times, and how he missed her kisses, from their first kiss at a pub in MS to their last at his place before she left him. He'd never forget the way her kisses felt and the way her lips tasted. Today, all that's left are the fond memories of yesterday, his solitary relic of a love that went too soon. A sudden pang overwhelmed him and soon enough, he found himself fighting to hold back a torrent of tears.
When you left I lost a part of me. It's still so hard to believe. Come back baby, please, 'Cause we belong together.
The next song played, and how poignantly pertinent it was. She never knew that when she left she took a part of him, the part of him that pumped life into every part his body. All that was left now was a hollow mortal shell that was jaded and brokened, as well as a feeling of self-worthlessness. Is he really better than me? Are you out with him right now having a great time while I'm all alone at home still thinking about you and missing you like crazy? Do you really not love me anymore? He always struggled to come to terms with those incessant thoughts each and every night, until the point when he drifted into sleep, tears all over his pillow. It's been rough, it really has been.
He looked over at the time. It was 11.00pm. The five minutes that went by felt like forever. Time seems to pass so slowly now that she's gone, so slowly that it's almost excruciating at times.
Still mawkish from reminiscing, he shifted gears and set off on the same familiar road that led to home, his heart heavier than stone.
11:30 PM - You left Gucci for Giordano, darling.
Friday, March 28, 2008
then again, you'd be too occupied with your new found love interest to even have the time to remember that i exist, much less bother me, like you claim you wouldn't anymore. but who am i to expect anything. nobody..just your nobody.
11:43 AM - You left Gucci for Giordano, darling.
Thursday, March 27, 2008
It's mind-boggling how you fell for someone else and had no more feelings for me in such a short span of time, even before everything was over. But what's even more mind-boggling is why the fuck do I still love you so fucking much.
Hey girl, is he everything you wanted in a man You know I gave you the world You had me in the palm of your hand
So why your love went away I just can't seem to understand Thought it was me and you babe Me and you until the end But I guess I was wrong
Don't want to think about it Don't want to talk about it I'm just so sick about it Can't believe it's ending this way
Just so confused about it Feeling the blues about it I just can't do without ya Tell me is this fair?
Is this the way it's really going down? Is this how we say goodbye? Should've known better when you came around That you were gonna make me cry It's breaking my heart to watch you run around 'Cause I know that you're living a lie That's okay baby 'cause in time you will find...
What goes around, goes around, goes around Comes all the way back
Now girl, I remember everything that you claimed You said that you were moving on now And maybe I should do the same Funny thing about that is I was ready to give you my name Thought it was me and you, babe And now, it's all just a shame And I guess I was wrong
Don't want to think about it Don't want to talk about it I'm just so sick about it Can't believe it's ending this way
Just so confused about it Feeling the blues about it I just can't do without ya Can you tell me is this fair?
Is this the way things are going down? Is this how we say goodbye Should've known better when you came around That you were going to make me cry Now it's breaking my heart to watch you run around 'Cause I know that you're living a lie That's okay baby 'cause in time you will find
What goes around, goes around, goes around Comes all the way back around
7:32 PM - You left Gucci for Giordano, darling.
Sunday, March 23, 2008
Played a match with a damn strong team today..it comprised of players previously from FAS and NFL. we only had 7 players lah.. but we managed to find 4 damn malay guys from the previous match to play for us. The malay guys we found were bloody useless, especially the skinny dude who looked like his skinny leg was gon snap any time. To think i was a nice guy and let one of them take my striking position at the start of the game. End up they ask me to go upfront cos he was too bloody useless. The opponents had like enough players to form 2 teams, so i reckon somewhere between 22 - 24 players. We basically had zero subs and everyone had to play the entire match. In the end, we got thrashed like 10-1 i think... but i scored our only goal..and it was damn sublime. damn proud of myself. wahahaha. i kinda enjoy playing teams like that..it's challenging and i enjoy the thrill of going straight at them, no fear, no reservations, cos i got nothing to lose anyway.
soccer is therapeutic, it really is.
when you said "you're still the same" & "what do you want from me", my heart bleeded girl.
11:36 PM - You left Gucci for Giordano, darling.
Saturday, March 22, 2008
I'm sorry.
You're a wonderful girl.. you're good-looking, you've got an incredible voice, you're sweet, you're treat me really nice, you're funny and all, any guy'd fall for u.
But I ain't got space left for anyone else in my heart anymore.
Thanks for being there for me all this time when I've been feeling utterly miserable, for appearing when I least expect you, for always lending me you shoulder to lie on, for taking care of me when I get pissed drunk, for singing to me and for just listening to me go on and on. But please don't waste your time on me. I'll still go see you sing all the time.
and you, i don't think you even miss me at all.
6:24 PM - You left Gucci for Giordano, darling.
Tuesday, March 11, 2008
Wow Christie..i'm not even a law student yet. But using whatever limited knowledge that I managed to garner from books that I've read during NS, I reckon that the nature of the disclaimer has to be clear. Disclaimers can be limit risk of damages that one may potentially incur through unforseened circumstances while some are used to specify warnings or expectations to people in order to fulfil a duty of care owed to prevent unreasonable risk of injury or harm. Since the books I've read mostly pertained to UK law, I know for a fact that the validity of a disclaimer is restricted by the Unfair Contract Terms Act, of which by virtue, prohibits a business from using a contract term or a notice to exclude or limit its liability for negligence causing death or injury. So probably in the event of any injury or damage, as long as it is reasonably forseeable in all circumstances then will a disclaimer exonerate one from liability. So how about say someone books into a hotel having paid in advance, and upon entering his allotted room, he sees a notice on the wall that reads 'The proprietors will not hold themselves responsible for articles lost or stolen unless handed to the counter for safe custody". But after leaving his stuff in the room, locking up and heading out, a third party steals the key and stole some of his stuff from the room, having the completed the contract at the reception desk and having not seen any disclaimer prior to booking his room, no subsequent notice on any wall in his room or along the corridor may affect his right to damages. Anyway this is what I think only.. so don't quote me. you should ask someone else more qualified than me. :)
6:53 PM - You left Gucci for Giordano, darling.
Thursday, March 06, 2008
Some people tell me that where you get your degree is not crucial at all, end of the day, it's just a paper. Sure, but i beg to differ. It may be just a piece of paper, and where you get at the end of the day would depend very much on how well you put to use what you learnt at university, but that piece of paper is a stepping stone, and ceteris paribus, a Cambridge law degree will warrant a bigger slab of stone to step on vis-a-vis a law degree from some half-fucked school. Of course, having a bigger slab of stone to step on will give you better odds of crossing the river to the bank of success, but there's still a chance that you'd sink if you're a big time fuckup, and on the contrary, a smaller stone gives you a slimmer chance of making it across but it does not discount completely that possibility. Sure, along the way, you may meet other larger & more powerful stones that will aid you tremendously in your career, thus widening your stepping stone and increasing your odds of succeeding, but that is opened to everyone in the river and hence, end of the day, point is, it's better to go into the river with a big and firm stepping stone. But my potential big fat stone just shrank to a piece of stone debri when Cambridge delivered me a stone cold stunner 1 month ago. The fucking vicissitudes of life..I'm on the negative amplitude at the moment. They had me sinusoidal..sinusoidal.. when they said it's over.
7:39 PM - You left Gucci for Giordano, darling.
This pre-U holiday hasn't gone according to script, and now I'm pretty lost, aimless and wasting a hell lot of whatever little time I have left.
So, I didn't exactly make it to my dream school, I haven't accumulated enough of my own money to get something that I've wanted for a long time, I didn't manage to hit 67kg becos of my damned wrist injury, I haven't been playing soccer as frequently as I wanted to because of my old injury, I haven't learnt the guitar, I haven't been doing the jobs that I planned to do since during NS, I haven't met up with some of the people that I wanted to, I haven't gone to Taiwan with KW & Mark yet, I haven't flewn to Melbourne to see Kelvin yet, I haven't done my internship at Drew & Napier, I haven't read all the books on my shelf yet, and now, I haven't decided between King's College and NUS yet, and the decision fuse is shortening by the day. Of course, I've always maintained that if given a choice between King's College & NUS, it was always gonna be NUS, but of course back then I never expected to be rejected by the likes of LSE. LIKE WTF I STILL CAN'T GET OVER IT. But the reality of the situation is such that I have been rejected and the only English university that has offered me a place to read law is King's College London, and I really do wanna go to London for a few years. I wanna visit the Emirates, I wanna work in a magic circle firm, I wanna meet all the angmors. Nonetheless, right now, right now at this very juncture in my life, this moment, this second, I'mvery much inclined to staying in Singapore. I can't leave now can I? Not now. Not when the feeling is getting stronger day by day. This is tough.. and time's not on my side. Dammit, today's torrid. I've got a gargantuan conundrum staring a hole at me 1st thing in the morning..and it's burning a hole in my wallet. wtf. Solution, solution, solution. Give me one right at this very instant. sigh, guess I'll start work at my mum's office come Tuesday.
4:12 PM - You left Gucci for Giordano, darling.
about
Brandon T.
from Tao Nan, to Dunman High, to Temasek JC. What's next? Cambridge the Lexus or NUS the Olive tree? I love soccer, and life gets pretty interesting when you worship 11 men and love 1 woman. And I'm still waiting..for you.
If you be my star
I'll be your sky
you can hide underneath me and come out at night
I'll turn jet black and live in your shadows
while you show off your light
I live to let you shine
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