Saturday, December 22, 2007

Legs began to wear and expectations started to wane as he trudged up and down the familiar road of Pasir Ris Heights at an aimless gait. 2 hours and more than 10 calls later, it was 3 in the morning. What started as one minute of emotional surge and hours of reminiscing ended in a 2 hr wait for ... he didn't really know what either. The clock continued ticking, completely oblivious to his exasperations. It was running late. It was time to leave. He had already drove off a couple of times only to do a 180 and head straight back to where he was. But it was time to go home, time to do away with this senseless behaviour....Time..to let go. So as he took his leave, he turned back to look at the road that he's gone up and down countless of times. And with the heaviest of hearts, he thought to himself, I missed you tonight and I was here, but you'll probably never know.. goodbye. And as he hit the expressway at a 150, his world collapsed with a solitary tear trickling down his ravaged face.

12:48 PM - You left Gucci for Giordano, darling.

Friday, December 21, 2007

was thinking.. maybe lemme do the askin this time. So like maybe hey, let's hang out, midnight movie or smth. And so i made the elusive call and then bam! The stark realisation felt like a train wreck. this is it. final.

and my head hurts like crap. seriously.

12:48 AM - You left Gucci for Giordano, darling.

Wednesday, December 12, 2007

Rummaging through the overflowing rectangular box that I keep all those notes and cards and what have you in as I prepare to shift to my new house, it was always inevitable that I started reminiscing about all my past relationships from the first one I had in sec 4 till the most recent one. Of course, all of them, or at least most of them, are worth talking about, esp theses 2 girls, let's call them A & S, but I ain't gon do that today. But after all these years, the only girl I've never truly gotten over is Yueshan. Some of my closer friends ask me now and then whether we'd ever get back together, I doubt it. I wouldn't want to either. It was good while it lasted and I'm glad we're still friends, but she was the only girl that I could truly be myself with, and probably the main reason why I felt really happy during the few years that I was with her, at least for most part of our relationship. She was the only one who I could say any bullshit that I felt like, as and when I felt like it, without reservations at all, without all the insecurities of wondering whether she'd find me lame. I know for sure that she'd laugh at anything and everything I say and most importantly, I know that her laughter comes from within and isn't some "I'm laughing so that you'd shut the fuck up" kinda laughter. And even a few years after we've gone our separate ways, nothing in that respect has changed. Another fundamental aspect attributing to the intrinsic strength of a relationship would definitely have to be the mutual-confidant relationship that both parties share, and with her I had that. I could confide in her anything and everything knowing that she won't brush the topic off with some cliche lines that I've heard a thousand and one times. There is a difference, really, between her and every other girl, and it's patently obvious to me because S, whom I've been with for most part of this year seems absolutely bored at the things I say or the jokes I crack sometimes, and I don't even talk to her about it anymore because she'll probably brush it off. Most of the other girls I've dated, well some came pretty close, some weren't even worth mentioning at all, but I guess I'll never find another girl that I'd love wholeheartedly with absolute disregard for any other girl that came by along the way.. oh yea no one else mattered back then, no one. But err..huh? damn. Perhaps some how or other, in my cognitive state of mind, I've benchmarked everyone else against her, and all these while I've been simply trying to find someone like her, someone who will allow me to be myself once again..yeah that's all I wanted, to be honest..to be myself.

I guess it's true what they say.. that the first love is always the sweetest.

7:19 AM - You left Gucci for Giordano, darling.

Sunday, December 02, 2007

7:49 PM - You left Gucci for Giordano, darling.

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Brandon T.

from Tao Nan, to Dunman High, to Temasek JC.
What's next? Cambridge the Lexus or NUS the Olive tree?
I love soccer, and life gets pretty interesting when you worship 11 men and love 1 woman.
And I'm still waiting..for you.

If you be my star I'll be your sky you can hide underneath me and come out at night I'll turn jet black and live in your shadows while you show off your light I live to let you shine

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