Thursday, November 17, 2005
Isn't it incredible how life can change so instantaneously? Everything was pink and rosy, and you've already done everything in your ability to make sure that every nook and cranny is covered, every page of the TYS is covered with your pen ink and every single set of notes has been mutilated by those irritatingly different coloured luminous highlighters. And so you walk into the examination hall brimming with confidence..Then BAM! There you go. Shit happens. Blonde brain syndrome works it's magic.
I guess this sounds strangely familiar for many of us that took the papers this year eh?
But as the good old adage says, Life goes on. So as we close this chapter of our lives and relegate it to the annals of bad history, we look forward to the next phase of our lives. For many of us, it'd be no-holds-bar every strand of hair comes down party till you drop dead from intoxication and shaking too much of that booty, and for some of us, it's as sad as booking into camp in a matter of weeks. Well, I'll wave from the shores of Singapore. Remember to wave back from Tekong. Then there are those who'll be going to work, and those who can't keep their hands off their books cos they've grown so damn attached to them over the span of their more than a decade long education. Ever thought of marrying a book? But before we walk our seperate ways, pursue our different goals(and weird fetishes), and do our own stuff, let us all embrace the moment and look back on the times that mattered, on the times that had sculpted our lives and made us who we are today. The next step is the step into adulthood. Gone is the days we run about the field chasing a bloody ball without having to worry about bread. Gone also, is the days where all we need to do is study and nothing else. Well except maybe for some. 18 years have gone and past. Amazing isn't it? Those fond memories of our former alma matas still seems like yesterday. Wouldn't it be nice if we could turn back the hands of time and do everything once again? So as we proceed with this transition in life, let us not forget the ones around us, the ones that have made this world a truely marvellous place.
9:53 PM - You left Gucci for Giordano, darling.
Monday, November 14, 2005
mr tong said that the interview was more important.. hmm.. point noted.. but not like i'm very eloquent to begin with. blah..
dreadful examinations are drawing to a close, and it's about time i started planning for life after the books. woots! firstly, i shall be going for an ear pierce with KW on Friday. That gay wants to holes. i'm conservatively sticking to 1. =P Then i'll colour my hair before i won't be able to for the next 2 years of my life as i'll be incarcerated by social contract. haha i think i'll try something outlandish this time. purple streaks perhaps.. was thinking about electric blue too, but streaks of course..not the entire mob. A change of coiffure too perhaps, will probably leave it to grow longer. oh then i have to go register for my driving tests, probably with Ronnie. Next up on the list would be registering for SAT, LSAT and LNAT. will have to spend my holidays mugging for those. yeah.. just when the mugging was suppose to end. Ok.. what else? oh yeah i've got to meet everyone before i go into NS as well. Lastly, time to start kicking ball again.. my oh my.. the love of my life.
11:35 PM - You left Gucci for Giordano, darling.
Saturday, November 12, 2005
i believe this is truely the lowest point of my academic life. never, in about 1.2 of a decade, have i felt so down in the dumps. Not even when i got the 2nd lowest in class during PSLE with my 258 score and was one of the only few that didnt go to Raffles. Not even when i got a miserly 12 points during the O's cos i was too involved in freaking BGR. but now, when finally for the first time in life, i know what i want, i know which direction i'll be heading, i know which fork in the road i'll be taking, yet the traffic lights doesnt wanna turn green. For once in my life i was really motivated to study, for every subject, including GP. I never studied for GP before and this is the first time i did..and the first time that i ever studied for GP, i misintepreted the question. neality has dealt a cruel blow especially so when GP is supposed to be my area of strength, and during the course of 2 years in JC, it has always been my pillar of support, giving my grades a much needed boost when all the rest was shit. And for once in my life i have looked to the next transition for the impetus to study..i never wanted to go RI that bad, neither did i ever wanted to go to and JC that bad. Well yeah i wanted to go to TJ quite badly, but not THAT badly. but i wanna get into ivyleague THAT bad. i wanna apply to Yale and Cambridge.. i wanna get in law school. i know my parents couldn't ask for more than for me to get into the university that i yearn for cos for once in my life, they see that i actually have a direction and actually know what i want. If my grandpa was still around, he'd be proud to know that i wanted to take law, which he had always wanted me to do since i was a kid. well, so much for the crazy mugging. i gave my neck for it, literally. 3As and a B4? Wrong answer! and all becos i wrote one freakin essay out of point for the first time in my entire 18 year life. i've never even failed a bloody essay b4. what unholy timing. if only they marked language over 40 and content over 10, then i wouldnt been sulking over spilt milk right now. i guess, i'll go talk to Mr Tong tomorrow, and see where i should go from here.
1:23 PM - You left Gucci for Giordano, darling.
today marks the official end of my future. i wrote my entire General Paper essay out of point cos i misintepreted the whole question. i won't even get a B4 and i'm not getting into law.
12:13 PM - You left Gucci for Giordano, darling.
Thursday, November 10, 2005
holy pepperoni.. today's maths paper was, as simple plan would put it, C-R-A-Z-Y. i knew how to do every single question but i was freaking careless. god.. one stupid SIGN cost me 11 marks, and i won't even go into the others. How could i forget that ridding the bracket result in a change of signs. and how, in the name of cow, could i get root 4 = 1? great. incredible. marvellous. my my my. suddenly everything seems bleak and melancholic. General Paper beckons, and to say the least, i'm not confident at all. What if they ask some twisted questions for the twisted minds and me, being perfectly untwisted, got no idea where to start? i mean, empirical eveidence collated from the past 3 days have proved that at 10% level of significance, there is sufficient evidence to say that Cambridge is out to screw us this year. And as such, the confidence interval for getting an A1 for GP is fairly minute. Well, screw stats. how did the subject that i was adament that i was gonna ace in, end up become the source of my pangs? this is bad.. A levels isn't as easy as i thought, and as it should be, like the questions in the bloody TYS, straightforward and simple.
9:36 PM - You left Gucci for Giordano, darling.
Wednesday, November 09, 2005
geez.. what's with the A lvl papers this year? why are they all seemingly harder than the previous years? some of the questions in today's chemistry paper were rather abstuse.. especially the deductive question for organic chem. i manage to get the cyclical di-amide compound but i mis-counted the number of H for compound C so i drew a cyclical di-ester instead of just a straight chain ester. bah! and the first question for food chem was crazy. yeah ok i know the answer to an example of trisaccharide.. which is raffinose.. but where on earth is it found? it's not even in the notes. so i end up writing "Vegetables". well, the food chem questions were quite extraordinary lah, and i heard that the bio chem questions weren't nondescript kinda questions either. And the Barium question.. i got the barium peroxide but i forgot that it reacts with water to form barium hydroxide and hydrogen peroxide.. My rate equation was wrong too. After the exams, it suddenly dawned upon me that N2O2 = 2 NO and so it's Rate = k[NO]²[O2] mehh. well i got the units right at least, if that's any comfort. Ok and what really pisses me off is that i wrote gaseous atoms instead of gaseous ions in my lattice energy definition. Transition elements was quite crazy as well. Like.. how often do u write what u write in Paper 4 in Paper 3? Paper 4 being Practical. Stupid.. I did every single chem question in the TYS, that'd be about a few thousand questions including MCQs and none of them were as weird as this year's. sigh i think i'll lose a total of not more than 20 marks. Bad! shall spend a day or 2 to mug for paper 1 and 2, can't afford more than that as Econs beckons!
Way to go Cambridge!
12:20 PM - You left Gucci for Giordano, darling.
Tuesday, November 08, 2005
Maths Paper 1 wasn't exactly run-of-the-mill i should say.. certainly the past yr papers were relatively easier, and probably that's why last yr's A mark was 82. like.. 82! god. Surprisingly, i got stymied for a while at the first few questions.. but managed to solve them eventually. i think my grade is teetering perilously at 88 marks approximately. So i'd probably get 85 for this paper..which is bad. means I'll have to score 90+ for stats hmm. the bloody hall felt like the North Pole and i was practically shivering throughout the paper. and so inadvertently, my handwriting was haywire since i lost control of my shaking hand. Hope the cambridge examiner that marks my paper doesnt happen to be an old, thick rimmed fart who can't see shit. oh well.. sighs. Chem paper tomorrow. shall just read a lil and go to sleep.. what's to be done has been done.. frantic mugging at this juncture won't do much for your cause if u havent been studying. But i've studied for chem..so it shouldnt be a problem... i hope?
8:03 PM - You left Gucci for Giordano, darling.
words may have little significance to u anymore, but that's all i have to offer. i'm too tired to explain, and the last thing in the world that i need at this point in time is compounded stress and frustrations sourcing from your strafing accusations of infidelity. If within the course of the 9 months that we've been together, i haven't done enough to show u that i am no him, that two-timing has never ever been on my agenda, then i've failed after all. But i won't say i wasted 9 mths of my life though, 'cos i didn't. I've never let u down, and i see no need to explain. You wouldn't listen anyway. I'm utterly disappointed with what u said, please process before u say it, for once you're down with your tirade, u can never take it back. Can't believe you actually said something like that. Did u even think about how i feel, especially when i NEVER ONCE did cheat on u? Anyone can say that about me, but not you, it's just wrong. Well then, maybe i'm just like him to you eh. Now i see the point of that post of yours. You once told me never to compare, but u just did, covertly at least. I thought that you'd be understanding enough to let me get through my exams in peace, instead, you generated an extra wave of turbulence which has occupied my thoughts for the past day. I can't do anything properly right now. can't believe i'm actually sitting here writing this shit 6 hours before my first paper. yeah guess that's it. over and done.
7:48 AM - You left Gucci for Giordano, darling.
